Reading and Life Updates
Hello my book loving friends. It has been entirely too long since I have enjoyed your company and I hope to remedy that in the near(ish) future. So much has gone on this past year it’s hard to quantify in a short update but I will try to keep it short. Bonus picture for reading my ramblings.
So, on the lighter side of things, my days are very busy chasing my 2 toddlers around. Peanut started preschool last fall and Batman will be 2 in April. My how time flies! As you can imagine, wrangling a one and three year old keeps me busy. Cooking, cleaning, play dates, school events, shopping… it’s exhausting and fun and everything in between. Unfortunately by the end of my day (or sometimes even the middle of it) I am left with little energy for myself and the things I enjoy. I know, I know, self care is important. I do try to get out regularly without the kiddos and my husband is supportive with all that. Mostly I just struggle with focusing on a book. Putting on a mindless movie or a tv show I love is just easier mentally most days. I’m hoping to improve on that in 2019. Now that Batman is sleeping though the night semi regularly and my sleep schedule is getting more regular I’m hoping my energy levels improve and I can enjoy reading again. Although if you count reading children’s books, I read at least a hundred books last year.
On the harder side of things 2018 was rough. My husband was in 2 serious car accidents that totaled our cars (he’s fine, thank goodness) and 2 minor accidents that involved repairs on the car. In addition to the paperwork/insurance nonsense there was a lot of stress involved. The last part of the year just felt unbearable as I was dealing with one thing after another. Everyday I felt anxiety about what would happen next, and it sent me into a spiraling depression. There was a lot of little stuff that kept stressing me out, but I don’t want bore you with all the details. Then my grandfather died. I suffer from depression regularly, but this situational depression hit me harder than most and it’s taken me a few months to get back to feeling okay. And I mean okay, not great or happy, but okay enough that I’m not in constant fear of the next proverbial shoe dropping. As you can imagine reading was not a high priority during this time. It took all of my patience just to get through the day.
I’m happy to report that things are getting better. Now that the holidays/traveling/car situations are over I’m looking forward to settling into our routine again. Toddlers will still be toddlers but I’m feeling more and more like myself every day. Which works out because Bout of Books is starting this weekend and I think it’ll be a great way to jump back into the reading game.
I guess the point of this is to say that if you’re struggling and reading isn’t your thing right now, that’s okay. Books will be there when you come back. Mental health is important and there’s no pressure to read. I felt bad that I wasn’t contributing to our lovely book blog and it just added to the stress I was under. Luckily Jessica is super awesome and supportive and never ever made me feel bad about my lack of reading. So there it is. Your insight for the new year, YOU DO YOU.
Also, I’d really like to meet my reading goal this year of 30 books. Life may get in the way but when I do make time to read I always feel better after. So yes, more reading less stress. Cheers to 2019!
