A Bit of a Down Post
Well my loves, I know I vanished and this time I’m not sure how long it’s going to take me to come back. I know I don’t owe the internet world anything. I know that it’s easy to just walk away and not come back, but I feel like I’ve been keeping this blog alive for so long (sometimes really well, sometimes not so much) that I at least owe you a quick explanation.
The end of October brought a loss into my world that completely rocked it to the core. It shattered all of the motivation that I had prepped for finishing out the year strong, and I’ve been in survival mode literally every day since then. Grief is, and pardon my language, a terrible bitch. There are days I feel super strong and normal, and then there are days where I spend literally my entire day just attempting not to turn into a sobbing mess at my desk. Work is necessary, and so I do it, but it’s hard. Everything else that would normally bring me joy just has to take a back seat until I learn how to navigate this new normal I’m living in now.
I want to come back here. I want to read more, and I REALLY miss reviewing books. But right now that’s just not something that I can do without feeling like I HAVE to. If there’s one thing that I’ve learned these last few months, it’s that you should really take care of your mental health at all times. If something that is supposed to be fun is starting to feel like a job, step away. Take a break. Burrito for a while in blankets and watch some fun and mindless TV. Be kind to yourself.
Anyway, I’m not going to promise to be back at the beginning of the year. I might be? Who knows. If I am it might be sporadically again. I’ll get there, but I just need time. Love y’all. Take care of yourselves, and keep the people you love the most super close okay? Hugs.
